Minkyland

Been a long 2 weeks dat just passed. Being in the slackest posting, i still feel tired. And very lazy. Dun know how ppl can tahan a 7-day work week. And my turn is fast approaching.

The weekend is passing faster den i hope it to be. It's a rather boring weekend. Everyone's on call, there is no more soccer, and i'm starting to get bored playing DOTA alone. I think i'm very lazy. I can actually think of some things i want to get done. But i'm too lazy to move my butt beyond the confines of the house.

Been losing weight recently. It's odd considering ppl always say dat you'll gain weight in obgyn, cuz it's so slack, u spend ur time eating. Maybe i should relli start some exercising regime going.

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Expectations is an interesting thing. There are those instinctive expectations, like as if it's been engraved into my genome. Like how i would expect myself to excel in most things i do. Then there are those role-related expectations, like how i would expect the meepok man to cook a mean bowl of meepok. But slowly with time as i age, these expectations start fading. It gradually mellows.

With expectations, come disappointment

Disappointment comes along when ur expectations are not met. Like how i fail to do better to get the postings i want, or how i fuked up my A levels to land up doing this. Or if the meepok man cooks up a bowl of kwaytiao-teng, when u ask for meepok with lots of chilli. It just feels different. It damn feels shitty to not be in control.

After disappointment, comes acceptence

There will come a time, when u know u cannot fight the beast. You admit defeat, dat no matter wat u do, you cannot change wat is already there. You realise dat you are a loser, but perhaps a easier way out, is to convince urself dat it's alright. You tell urself, maybe things happen for a reason, maybe there's no point pursuing the issue any longer. You give up, and give in.

Life goes on. With a smile, and a tear.